Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Information of the old and new

Well for the two or three of you that still read this, though I wonder why as I am such a bad blogger, here is an update of the last month of my life.

Jerrod: Well, he made it to four, much to the surprise of me and probably him. The magic age of four has not brought him out of any of the 'terrible' phases; just given him more reason to say that he is a big boy now. Other than that, I finally got him to hit 35 pounds... it only took me right at four years. I don't understand where he gets the great metabolism from, but I hope he keeps it. He has entered a new phase though. I am sure all of you parents can attest to the 'Why?' phase. Yes, we have reached it and made me wonder 'why' there are some many things in life that are confusing. You never think about everyday things until a four year old points it out and asks why. Being the parent you of course start to answer, only to find yourself dumbfounded as you can not remember yourself why it is that way. There are many mornings as we drive the hour to school and work that I ask myself how I became an adult seeing as how I can't even remember why the four way stop goes in rotation for turns and who gets to go first. (And yes, that was an actual question out of his mouth.) Hopefully all of the things that I am telling him are going in one ear and out the other, and eventually he will learn the real way things are supposed to be and not his mother's recollection.

The job: It is still going well. The girl that is selling her house is still there, and still waiting for the house to sell. But, I think that I am making a good impression and convincing my boss that I am definitely the person for the job. Here's to hoping anyway. I am keeping my options open though, and have applied for a few other jobs locally. They all pay more than what I am making, but are not the exact industry that I want to be in. Either way, where I am now has its pay offs even if the money isn't all that great. As of today, I established myself as a patient for one of the PA's in the office. It's actually the same one that Peg has seen and feels so comfortable with. I must admit that I almost gave myself a panic attack... ok I did give myself a panic attack before going into work today, and then again before going to the actual appointment. Over the past few years my anxiety has grown to a point that at times I don't feel like I can deal with it. I know it has a lot to do with my past and everything that I went through in recent years also, but until recently I hadn’t really come to terms with it. Thanks to Peg and a looming birthday of my own, AJ’s and also Jerrod’s a lot of things hit me at one time. Throw Steve into that mix and it was just a breakdown waiting to happen. As always, Pegs came to my rescue… well her and about a dozen glass bottles. (Don’t ask, don’t tell… lol) I have hopefully started on my way to recovery or at least learning a way to deal with it all in a more healthy way. Well that and the fact that my new doc has put me on anti-depressants/ anti-anxiety pills and also recommended that I put myself into therapy. I am along for the ride, and can only hope that I come out of this with a better perspective than what I have now.

The new beau: As I am sure you have all seen on Peg’s blog, there is a new man in my life. We shall just call him Beau and he is not only adorable, but funny and sweet. While he may be a little on the child like and hyper side, I really enjoy being around him. We actually have quite a bit in common, and not surprisingly, even went to a few of the same schools at the same time. Although we don’t remember each other, it was odd and funny to find it out. I like him a lot and can only hope that we can continue to get to know one another. I am taking it one day at a time, not getting too involved too quickly and definitely trying not to get too emotionally involved too quickly. Although I do enjoy being around him and spending time with him, I have been burned too much in the past to jump into anything too quickly. Not to mention, I am still working on me and that is more important than a relationship, no matter how good it feels to know that I have a man in my life that enjoys being around me as much as I enjoy being around him. It also doesn’t hurt that he is not hard to look at!

As always, thanks for tuning in and your words of support. I will be back in another month or so with another update I am sure. Hope all is well with all of you… *muah*

Monday, September 17, 2007

Strength in Numbers

Celebrate the happiness that friends are always giving, make every day a holiday and celebrate just living!

~Amanda Bradley

(Marci, H.P., Peg, Ya-Ya (Peg's Mom))

Monday, September 10, 2007

Updates.... and of course more promises.. lol

Hello to all, I don't really know that many of you still read this but if you do here are some updates. I have had a lot going on in my life in the last month or so and have hardly had the time to breathe, let alone blog about it all. As I predicted in my last post, the job didn't last. What I didn't mention in the last post, was that I had been warned before taking the job, that the girls I were going to be working with were not verry east to get a long with. I should have paid a little more attention to that warning, because I was thrown under the bus to take a fall that was not my fault. Needless to say, I was let go. It was definitly a blow, but I have another job. I have to say, although the money sucks, the job is good. I like everyone that I work with and get respect when deserved. That means a lot to me, as I am usually the one that goes out of my way to do things that are not nesscarilly apart of my job, but I know that need to be done. Don't get me wrong I don't look for the accalades, but it is nice to know that what I have done has been noticed. Cross your fingers for me that this one will last a while.

Jerrod is Jerrod. Nothing to much has changed with him. Well, let me take that back... one major change has been made. We are FINALLY POTTY TRAINED!! YAY!! Fully and completely! He has only had one accident in the past three months! I am so proud of him, yet at the same time, it's a little blow too. He's growing up more and more, and not only can I not stop it, but there are people that have missed the past two years with him and can't replace all these accomplishments he's made. Those are the ones I feel sorry for. I am sad that he is growing up, but at least I have these memories to look back upon and remember the way he was.

As you can probably see from that statement above... there has been no change to the Steve situation. He is still non-existant. And to be honest with you, I am over it. I am over letting it hurt me, over being pissed and upset about it, and definatly over trying to get him to be involved. As I have said, and now believe in, he is the one that is going to have to answer to all the missed times and years in the end, not me.

I do have some semi good news about my ever so lonely love life. I don't want to jinx it by talking about it too much, but I have found a really sweet guy. I think there is something there, and hope that it works out. He's adorable, funny, sweet, romantic, and understanding. Not to mention a very good kisser. >big smiles<

I am hoping that September is going to be my turning point. I have made a lot of new decisions this month and let go of a lot of old ones. Thanks to Pegs (and a few others), I think I really might be able to turn over this leaf and keep it over this time. I have learned a little bit about me in the past week or so, and am going to try my damndest to keep going with it and keep the promises I have made. Not only to a few very special people, but mostly to myself.

Hope this finds everyone doing well!! Now that I am on a more steady schedule and things are starting to relax again, I am going to try to update more often. Yeah, yeah I know.. I have said it all before, but here's to hoping. :)

Sunday, July 15, 2007

So here I am...

Well, I am alive and I am here... for a moment or two anyway. As Peg has been so nice to tell all of you, I started a new job and things have been... to say the least... hectic. I have to give Pegs and Al a lot thank yous! They have been a lot of help to me with all of the wild hours I have been working. I would love to tell all of you that I am loving the new job, but I can't. I don't exactly hate it, but it's far from the happiness I felt with my old job. First of all, I am back at the bottom (Read: Non-existent to anyone) of the food chain. That wouldn't generally bother me, or wouldn't have in the past anyway, but I am of a certain age now and at a point in my life that I thought I would be a little higher in my career. Not to mention the fact that for the last few years I was the boss. The one with decision making power, a true say so in how the business was to be run, and very valued opinion on that business. To now be just another faceless person in a new place and have no say so in anything that has anything to do with my place in this business or the business is something to get used to. To make a long story short, it's a job and it gives me somewhat of a paycheck, but I am still keeping my eyes and ears open for something else.

Jerrod is still Jerrod, 3 and a half going on 30. Though I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that he comes by a lot of his attitude naturally, I think a lot of it also has to do with that in his almost four years of life he has had a lot of changes. I mean he started off with both parents in the same household. Granted, as I have said before, Steve was never a part of his life unless it was a convenience to him or made him look good in some way, but at least his 'father' was still around. He was always home with one of us. Then to go to being with one parent or the either, to finally just one parent all the time and never seeing the other. Now, not only does he never see nor hear from Steve, he is living with three other people. I would think that has some kind of effect on him.

Me... well... I am me. Nothing really new to report. There are no new interests or boyfriends. I am living each day, just trying to survive. Some days are good and some days aren't so good. But I am here. Somewhere here anyway. I would say that I will try to get more updates on here, but I won't say that... probably because I won't do it. But I will try to get back from time to time. I hope all of you are doing well! By the way, though I am not writing I am still reading your blogs! I do promise that. Take care until next time... *muah*

Thursday, June 21, 2007

Something to Tide You Over

Marci's still doing well, I just don't think she's been inspired to write anything lately.

Here is a pic I took of Jarrod during our Mardi Gras parade a few months ago.

Monday, June 04, 2007


Hey ya'll this is Peg.

No Marci hasn't fallen off the face of the Earth, she's still hanging in there.

She started her new job and she comes home feeling "drained" every day. (ask her why)

Jarrod is doing well....ok....Jarrod is doing.........ummm........Jarrod is Jarrod. He's a rambuncious three year old little boy. His purpose in life right now is to see how many times he can make us say "Dammit Jarrod!" in a 24 hour time frame.

Marci still hasn't found anyone to fall in love with yet, but there are a couple on the horizon so keep your fingers crossed!!

Leave her some love in the barren wasteland that is her Comments section so she'll feel like blogging again!!!!!!

Monday, April 30, 2007

She lives, not to be confuse with 'She Bangs'

Hey guys, I am alive. I'm sorry I haven't been around! Between Jerrod getting sick, all the job interviews I have been going on, and the weekend adventures the Bundy's and I have been taking I haven't sat down and written anything in a while. So, here I am with an update... it might be long so be prepared.

Since the last time I wrote anything, I officially lost my job. It's still sad to me, but there's nothing I can really do about it. Regardless of how imperial I happen to think I am, I am the most expendable position there. Yes, I might keep the bills paid and the money coming in, but if it wasn't for the other guys there would be no bills or money to bring in. I have been to numerous job interviews and feel confident that I will find something soon. I was actually offered a job that starts next Monday. It's a great job, don't get me wrong, but I don't know that it can become a permanent thing with me and the situation I am in. The job is an office management/data entry position with one of our local blood banks, but the hours are crazy. One day I could go in at 4 am and not get off until 7 or 8 pm, and then the next day work a regular 8-5 shift. It's a wonderful opportunity and I am stoked that I was one they choose, I just worry that I would never get to see Jerrod and relying on the people that are going to have to help me with him is going to get hard for me. We will see though, because I am going to try it until I can either work these issues out or find something else.

As for Jerrod, he is good... now. Last week I got a call from his day care saying that he had a rash that started on his chest and back then went down to his legs. Needless to say he had appointment with the doctor's the first thing the next morning. Did you know that having Strep throat will sometimes present itself in the form of a rash and fever? Yeah, me either. (Although, after speaking with my mother to tell her what he had been diagnosed with she informed me that myself and my aunt both carry a rash when we have had Strep... apparently it runs in the family.) But, that's what it was. We are now on day 5 of antibiotics and finally back in school and so far so good. Other than that, I have recently found out what a flirt and heartbreaker my son is. I will start with the pictures Peg, Al, and I had made of the kids. We all know that we each feel that our child/children is/are the most adorable in the world, and I am no different. To me, my son is not only adorable, but handsome as well. Not to mention the pride I have in Kelly; she is a beautiful and adorable girl. So of course when we go to have pictures made (See picture further down) we expected to have the photographer to fall all over them, and they did, but it was at this point that my son for the first time expressed his flirtatious abilities and ‘Mr. Personality’ ways. He told the photographer that she was cute and continued to flirt throughout all of the pictures. Every time we go to a store or a drive-thru he has to make sure that he has the undivided attention of the checkout girl or attendant. (Yes, this is only with women/girls, he will only wave and say hi to the guys.) Tonight at a locally owned restaurant he boldly, and not to mention loudly, told our waitress that she was his ‘Girl,’ and continued this throughout the dinner. I will let you draw your own conclusion from what I have said, and the fact that last week as I picked him up from daycare, I was told that he must come from an affectionate family. As I pondered this and asked them what they meant, they told me that he had kissed not one, but two girls that day. Oh the fun I have to look forward to.

How adorable can two kids be??!?! (What? I warned you I was biast.)

As for everything else, it’s still pretty much the same. Steve is still as non-existent as my love life. Life with the Bundy’s is still better than I could have imagined and going well. Well except for the camping trip I was treated to a couple of weekends ago. Let me just say this, I LOVE camping. I always have, and I look for opportunities to go when I can. I am going to let Peg explain the experience itself, but I will tell you one thing. If you decide spur of the moment that camping sounds like a fun idea for a night with no kids, make sure you have everything you need. That’s all I’m saying.

Hope all of you are well!! I promise I will get around to reading and catching up with all of you! Thank you for those that left me sweet messages of concern and encouragement! This is normally where I would say that I am going to try to keep up with this better, but I am not going to do that this time. Maybe that will make it more likely to happen. J

Till next time… *muah*