- I need a man in my life. No, not because I need someone to support me or because I don't want to be alone. I just need that smell and presence that men give off. You know the ones I am talking about; The smell of a man after he has worked all day, kind of a mix between sweat and whatever cologne he grabbed that morning. Is there anything better? Or just the presence they tend to give off. Masculine and steady without saying a thing. Or knowing that just having them around makes you feel sexy, wanted, and safe.
- I need to do something different with my life. Now what this is I haven't figured out yet, but I just know I need to. Should I get a haircut? Or maybe finally decide what it is I want to do with my life.
- I need (Read: NEED, with every part of my being) to get laid. Not fall in love. Not date. Just pure, raw sex. I want to feel the weight of a man on top of me. I need someone to make me hurt (No, I am not an S&M kind of girl, but the kind of soft pain that usually comes after a good night of sex, at least when it is done right.) and more than anything I just need it to relax. I want someone to make me sweat, hell make me beg at some point for it, just give it to me!
- I need to lose more weight. Granted I have lost 34 pounds since August, I still need to lose more. I need to get back to my 'happy' weight. I don't know that I was ever completely happy with that weight, but I do know that I was more comfortable with myself and my self image.
- I want someone to want me. I want someone to have that everlasting, can't live without you, can't help but touch you need to be around me. (Yes, I realize this is probably a fantasy and no one truly does this, but hey... it's my wish/want/need list. :) )
- I need to quit letting my parents (Read: Father) influence me and make me not believe in myself or feel bad for the decisions of how and why I live my life.
Yeah, I think this about covers them all. From this, I think you can probably guesstimate what my dreams were last night (And yes, all of the listed above where in some way, shape, or form in my dreams last night.). Anybody have any suggestions? :)