Sunday, July 15, 2007

So here I am...

Well, I am alive and I am here... for a moment or two anyway. As Peg has been so nice to tell all of you, I started a new job and things have been... to say the least... hectic. I have to give Pegs and Al a lot thank yous! They have been a lot of help to me with all of the wild hours I have been working. I would love to tell all of you that I am loving the new job, but I can't. I don't exactly hate it, but it's far from the happiness I felt with my old job. First of all, I am back at the bottom (Read: Non-existent to anyone) of the food chain. That wouldn't generally bother me, or wouldn't have in the past anyway, but I am of a certain age now and at a point in my life that I thought I would be a little higher in my career. Not to mention the fact that for the last few years I was the boss. The one with decision making power, a true say so in how the business was to be run, and very valued opinion on that business. To now be just another faceless person in a new place and have no say so in anything that has anything to do with my place in this business or the business is something to get used to. To make a long story short, it's a job and it gives me somewhat of a paycheck, but I am still keeping my eyes and ears open for something else.

Jerrod is still Jerrod, 3 and a half going on 30. Though I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that he comes by a lot of his attitude naturally, I think a lot of it also has to do with that in his almost four years of life he has had a lot of changes. I mean he started off with both parents in the same household. Granted, as I have said before, Steve was never a part of his life unless it was a convenience to him or made him look good in some way, but at least his 'father' was still around. He was always home with one of us. Then to go to being with one parent or the either, to finally just one parent all the time and never seeing the other. Now, not only does he never see nor hear from Steve, he is living with three other people. I would think that has some kind of effect on him.

Me... well... I am me. Nothing really new to report. There are no new interests or boyfriends. I am living each day, just trying to survive. Some days are good and some days aren't so good. But I am here. Somewhere here anyway. I would say that I will try to get more updates on here, but I won't say that... probably because I won't do it. But I will try to get back from time to time. I hope all of you are doing well! By the way, though I am not writing I am still reading your blogs! I do promise that. Take care until next time... *muah*